I must admit, I’ve had something of a struggle these last few weeks. The run up to 2012, with everyone recapping the big (and not so big) events of 2011 has been a nearly constant reminder to me that I’m not where I wanted to be now, and that I failed to achieve most of the things I hoped to in 2011. I suppose a lot of people feel this way at the start of a new year. They wonder if they were just marking time for the past year, or worse, wasting it.
In an attempt to counteract this frustration, I’ve been trying to identify the successes I had last year, to express gratitude for what did go well, and to remember the happy times we had. So here are some things I’m grateful for (in no particular order).
I’m grateful for God, and that I’ve been raised to know him as a loving Father-Mother who always cares for us, in the good times, and the bad.
I’m grateful that we have had a roof over our heads and food on the table (thanks Mom!) through all this searching for home and employment.
While not having the income a job would provide has been difficult, I’m grateful for the extra time we’ve had as a family. Esbon has been a wonderful help with school, and taken on most of the housework. We’ve been able to take days or weekends off to go to the beach or visit friends – mini vacations we wouldn’t have been able to take if Esbon had had a full time job.
I’m grateful for being able to pay our bills each month with the modest income we do have. Like the Children of Israel and the manna in the wilderness, we always have just enough to meet our obligations.
I’m grateful for our new phones. We shopped for new phones for months, waiting for the right time, and the right upgrade offer. When Esbon’s phone died, we decided we would have to take the plunge, even though it meant saying goodbye to the awesome, inexpensive plan we’d had for years. We got our first smart phones, and even got phones for the boys, and we’re loving them.
I’m grateful that I got to go to my cousin’s wedding in June in New Orleans. It was a hot, muggy weekend, and Esbon and the boys couldn’t come with me, but I still had a lot of fun. The wedding was beautiful, and catching up with the rest of the family was priceless. It was the first time in years I had seen some of them (especially my cousin who currently resides in New Zealand) and the first time I met most of their kids.
There are many other things I’m grateful for, but those are the biggies. I have faith that 2012 will hold many more blessings for us, like a home of our own, the chance to visit Esbon’s sisters in Colorado and Louisiana, continuing success in our homeschool, and maybe even selling my first book.
Yes, 2012 looks promising. I wish you and yours a blessed new year and success in all your endeavors.
Happy New Year!